"Take Care" - Beach House (05:48)
from Teen Dream (2010)
As a very sentimental and nostalgic person, I’m naturally drawn to the memories I’ve personally attached to certain songs. I’ve discovered that not everybody does this, despite my naive mindset that surely everyone must bury their deepest secrets and milestones within musical tracks. Hearing a song with an emotional commitment can have a strong reaction, particularly if it hits you when you least expect it.
Certain songs connect me to various places, time periods, moments, or experiences. Some songs, like this one, are connected to a very specific person, and a tiny minute fraction of time that somehow manage to transcend the ‘big picture.’ I’ve listened to this song on repeat, often a couple dozen times in a row, and wondered what it is about it that just rips my heart out every time. For me, it really represents the inability to have what my heart really wants/wanted, and the realization that sometimes we really do just have to give something up based on logistics, no matter how strong or intense every piece of your being wants to continue forth.
A small tiny fraction of my existence is magnified in a larger than life way every time I hear this song. it always tears me up, makes me question everything, reconsider my choices, and regret things that haven’t even happened yet. Is it worth it to put myself through such turmoil? I can’t help but listen, though. Perhaps because the only chard left of something that was momentarily magical is buried deep in the bars of this song. The hopefulness of a promising dream lies beneath, despite the unfortunate fact that the dream is nothing but a charade.
What is worth fighting for? When do we give up, and why? I guess for me, in this case it was about a two way street that I was walking alone. Even if the heart wants what the heart wants, sometimes the heart has to die a little bit. As a self-admitted romantic, I’ll just say that it damn well sucks. The heart should always get what it wants.
"Stand beside it, we can’t hide the way it makes us glow
It’s no good unless it grows, feel this burning love of mine”